She said I’m Gemini
As if that would explain my hesitation
My awkward moments,
My insecurities
As if an astrological sign
Could put my heart at ease
Calm the flutters of my breath
Waiting for approval to
Send me sweet flowers
Of I love you.
The first time the thought entered my head
I shooed it away, shamefully
Its too soon! I’m not ready!
I want to say it but
throat strangled and turning blue
Too soft to make out
Causing an awkward questioning response.
Lips are suddenly sealed like
An envelope already dropped in the mail
Can’t get it back, can’t hit rewind
And suddenly that’s the way
It comes out
unexpectedly, furtively released
That’s the way I say I love you
To me.
